if??

lots of questions run through my mine..

and i am having my exams less than 12 hours time..

yet i cant leave my mind in the rest mode..

the world keep changing..

so do i..

but what i cant believe is that..

something can change just so fast until i didt even realize it..

or just because i don't not want to accept the fact of it..

lolz..

but the fact is human do change..

and i have to accept it too..

what i can do now is just pray harder and harder..

and leave it to god..

but this leave me a question as well..

if respect is really that big thing for human..

then what is family meant to human??

what is friend meant to human?

and what is you partner meant to human??

if respect is what you asking from others..

and you think that is much more important than anything else in the world..

think twice before you even move on..

if in a relationship..

respect is what people asking for..

yeah..kind true that respect is part of the relationship..

and it plays an important role as well..

no doubt about that..

but there are much more important things the play a role in the relationship as well..

trading a respect with hurting people's feeling..

worth it??

trading a respect with fighting people's word back..

isn't that you just disrespect someone as well??

what if they asking for a respect from you as well..

and they thinking of the same way you did..

so the cycle will be continue..

and the whole world will be start like fighting each other and start disrespect each other..

since you want a respect from others..

aren't you suppose to respect people as well??

isnt that a much more proper way??

yeah is true..

treating people nice does not guarantee you will get treated back the way you did..

but if you treat people bad..

does it guarantee you get treated nice as well??

why not play the game in the more proper and nicer way??

even in the real world nothing is fair..

if someone dont respect you..

will they even give you to make your own choice??

if someone dont respect you..

will they even bother to ask your opinion??

i realized..

there are much more things more important than respect..

when i get to the realistic world..

respect is just part of the game..

thats what i feel..

i am stress with lots of questions and problems..

save me!!!

please~

ungrateful

i am alive!!!!

parasitology-ing

*miss mama's homemade yong tau fu*

the bond between us..muacks..

hellllllooooooooooo..

i am back!!!!

hahahhaa..

the reason behind of the lack of update is because..

i am kinda busy with my studies, work..

just started my new semester last monday..

have parasitology, advance in medical science and introduction to forensic science as my subjects for this semester..

not too bad..

feel kinda stress for the parasitology..hahaha..

lots of name, morphology and also characteristic to remember!!!!!

hmm..

oh ya...

and lately due to the too free time i have for my holidays..

i started to read my story books..

which i have trouble into it..

cause once i start i barely will stop..

lolz..

done with the twilight saga in two weeks time..

next book..

hmm..

shopaholic or my sister's keeper..

weeee..

just a short update..

and oh ya..

my mummy and my sister just got back to malaysia..

they came to visit me for the past two weeks..

i miss them alot..

p/s: ignore whatever i try to say..i have no idea what i trying to type and also my organisation system abit of cacat..hahahhaa..will update once i am 'normal'????hahahhaa..

more updates will be coming..

see ya people..

i miss him..

should i lock myself into this??

i just miss that moment with you..

i should just accept the fact..

and continue my life without you..

but you will still live in my heart forever..

love you always..

maybe i should just accept it and let it go..

stay strong

thinking of what should i do next..

*i miss them*

i lost my loves one is just one day..

actually is in two weeks time..

but i only get to know after everything is over and after the two weeks..

i feel really bad for everything..

and yes i am depress..

deep in my heart i love them as much as anyone do..

i miss them..

i love them..

is really hard for me to accept the fact that i have lost my loves one in just a few minutes time..

i totally burst out when i get the shock news..

i am not as strong as i am thought..

but i have to..

because i have to..

just as simply as that..

i have to stay stronger than what i thought i was..

maybe i should just think like what my parents told me..

"everything is over..let it be and you did what the best you can do.."

but i keep question myself..

did i really did my best??

did i left no regret with it..

yes i am regret that i didt spent much time on you when i have it..

i wish i have more time to spent with you..

i hope i really did my best..i really hope..

i miss my parents..i miss my siblings..i miss everyone that i love..

so so much..

everynight..

when is time for me to sleep..

is queit night and my mind start to think all sort of stuff..

stuff that make me miss them even more..

i always think of them..

and i pray that you rest in peace..

love you..

depression

deep in my heart you know i love and miss you..you always my superstar

*i really miss my family, my daddy, my mummy, my sis, my bro and also toffy*

latest decision..

i am not going to melbourne..

cancel the whole trip..

due to the swine flu over there..

is way too serious and is at stage 6 now..

whole australia have 1222 cases and victoria/melbourne have 1k of cases..

is around 80% of it..

so for safety..

my mummy and jack mummy dont really allow us to go..

so stay back in perth and work and also maybe travel around the western australia..

i totally out of my mood to do anything today..

i received two shocking news yesterday night..

but nothing much i can do for it now..

what i can do is just hope and pray that they rest in peace and dont need to suffer the pain anymore..

maybe is true like what my mummy say..

maybe is good for them..they dont need to suffer the pain and now they can release it..

deep in my heart i really pray that..

and i know i can stay strong and not letting that over take me..

even though is hard..

but i know you will not want me to be that..

i know you want me to smile like the bright sun..

i will do whatever take me to do that..

love you always..

should i?

reading story books to let my time fly like nobody business..

*miss my family*

a more recent me

yes yes yes..

i know i know..

my blog is now full of dust and spider web..

hahahhaa..

i have a very good reason k..

i have my exam for the past two weeks..

and now i just done everything..

so basically i kinda free now..

nothing much to update my life here actually..

basically eveyrday the same..

just wakeup then cook then go to work or study then come back home then dinner then online then sleep..

dont you think that is abit boring?

hahahhaa..

but well..

i will be going to melbourne this sunday night..

hmmm..

still thinking of should i go or not..

because of the swine flu cases over there is more than 1 grand now..

but what i am thinking is even western australi have swine flue cases..

not much but still there are 22 cases..

isnt that will increase too??

and yet even if i dont go to melbourne i will still go to the busy shopping center to work..

and yet i still get the 50percent chance of getting it??

dont ya think so??

lolz..

is funny that people say is dangerous to travel now..

but most of my customer is travelling around also..

so even you not travelling everywhere..you still have the chance of getting it..

this means if you will get it means you will get it no matter how hard you try to avoid it..

if you wont get it means you wont get it..

is just that simple theory..

what i recogn is just when you get your flu symptoms..

go find a doctor and check it out..

dont try to delay it until the end stage..

cause we have no idea about is that the swine flu or a normal flu..

so the conclusion..

after all my stupid thoery and my complaint..

i decide that i will stick to my plan..

go and shop till i drop over there..

and i guarantee..

you will get a photo of me wearing with the mask!!!!!!!

hahahhahaa..

see you guys with my next update..

see ya..

just about my dinner..

country road?

*i miss them*

preview ticket for night at the museum 2..

yeah..i got this ticket for free..hmm..preview for the night at the museum 2!!!!!!just right after my quizzes..

alright-dy..
i didt get the chance to blog about my life over for like..
hmmm..
one month..
lolz..
i realise i only blog like once a month..
sorry peeps..
i really try very hard to take out some time to update my blog..
but the problem is..
assigments, presentation, quizzes and stuff really driving me crazy..
i am having my finals in two weeks time..
where i still have 2 quizzes to go for next week..
and my timetable for my finals really suck..
i have my biomedical physiology on the 1st day afternoon and straight away u have my mechanism of disease on the next morning..
and my last subject will be like one week after..
ish..
just cant wait for my finals end and done..

ok..this post will be about what i have for my dinner for the past 1 and half week??

lolz..

sour plum chicken

ikea's meetballs..

some fried egg..

minced chicken with eggplant..

rendang beef..

sweet and sour fish..

stir-fry cabbage..

bitter ground with chicken fried with black bean sauce..

'kai lan' with oyster sauce..

nothing much to talk about this post actually..

oh ya..

i cooked curry chicken last night..

yumy..

no picture for that..

cause i am just too hungry and start to dig the potatoes and chicken out from the bowl before i even though of taking a picture of it..

i will update more often after my finals or maybe after my quiz..

lynn i will remember my pinky promises!!!!!